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this man was so awesome...he's someone whose work as both activist and scholar in my field[s] of study in times when opposition to our work was even more overwhelming...he was post-modern before modernism AND i'd go so far as call him a fellow academic feminist; talk about a forward thinker!
"I don't believe in God because I don't believe in Mother Goose."
"Chase after truth like hell and you'll free yourself, even though you never touch its coat-tails."
"The fear of God is not the beginning of wisdom. The fear of God is the death of wisdom. Skepticism and doubt lead to study and investigation, and investigation is the beginning of wisdom. The modern world is the child of doubt and inquiry, as the ancient world was the child of fear and faith." - Clarence Darrow
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PS July 5th is my FIRST day off since June 15th....i'm so friggin' serious.../collapses
PPS ahhh engrish, i've been away too long...you never fail to amuse.
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PANTS!
also...my very first remix has finally been released! it's a remix of Cyanotic's track 'Deface' which i was hoping to make more electro, clubbier, and while it's only a couple years late o_0 it IS out now on the new Ad-ver-sary remix CD as he was my collaborator in t3h music makings...
---> track #15 Cyanotic - Deface (Ad·ver·sary + Dirtybunny = Industrial Strength Mix)
...and i think it sounds pretty damn good in the club after all :D
OH yeah, if you wanna download it to check it out, go right ahead!
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much more to say...later.
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also, i love red ju-jubes.
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Thursday, June 18th, 2009
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if something is worth suffering for
then anything is worth suffering for
then nothing is worth suffering for
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"men heap together the mistakes of their lives, and create a monster they call destiny" - John Hobbes
...you have no idea.
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please never let me run in to one of these, ever...there see? proof there is no god...GAH!
that not bad enough for you? well they're land crabs that can get freakin' h00g and are strong enough to eat friggin' coconuts...GAH! I SAY.
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Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
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so we had to put Vallakesch [Valla] down...there isn't anything to be done for renal failure so...i'll miss her, she was my peacemaker...her sister was the protector and she was always the first to welcome the new ones to the family...i'll miss her, i'll miss them both...at least i had 18 years with them...
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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
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so i have to bring my other oldest cat, Vallakesch, the sister of Tazia who we just had to put down, to the vet tomorrow....and it may also be her last visit, depending on what happens...i'm not so good about it.
also on a far less serious note i just tore the shit out of a favourite pair of [black w/tiny white polka dots] socks on a nail the has since bee pounded back in to the depths of hell, which apparently resides just under the hardwood in the hallway...
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you know, just in case... ;)
403-775-9982 Calgary
780-669-5270 Edmonton
905-963-0318 Hamilton
519-488-2355 London
514-667-0361 Montreal
613-686-3620 Ottawa
647-476-4910 Toronto
778-786-8557 Vancouver
250-984-0686 Victoria
204-272-3976 Winnipeg
love, Canada
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heh if you dunno what these numbers are, call your local one; i promise you won't have to talk to anyone :)
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so i was almost be-headed by a large/heavy amp and turntable that flew off the back of a pick-up truck directly at my head while i was driving directly behind him...if there had been parked cars in the lane beside me or i had been just a little closer to him, i really and truly think [know] i'd be dead or at least severely injured right about now...i haven't had a brush with death like that, a real close, really real brush like that, for a long time...funny how once everything else that has come up since then today has passed, things like this can just come back on you just when you think you've got a quiet moment to yourself....i'm a bit shaken, it seems...it was so close, truly.
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Wednesday, April 15th, 2009
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one of the nice things about spring since moving in to this house is feeding the Mallard ducks in the back yard that make our pool their temporary home each year....if only my camera's cord for the re-charger wasn't lost somewhere between here and Germany o_0 i'll try to post some photos once i get a replacement...
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Saturday, April 11th, 2009
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i will never cease to be squigged out by the term 'glory hole'.
...oh and i've been painting constantly for the past while...i've got a new large mounted canvas about half finished and am also finishing up a very large unmounted canvas that i've been working on for years, that's finally almost done...i've also completed a few fine pen & ink pieces...i'll post photos with the others when they're done.
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while not exactly a light-hearted romp for a Sunday afternoon, i'm pretty sure i'll be heading to The Mayfair after work today for The Deer Hunter playing today @ 1:30pm...Didi Mau! Didi Mau! heh...
i saw this film for the first time when it came out in theatres [i was 7 or 8...i was a pretty advanced kid] and it really moved me...it's an excellent Vietnam war film, up there with Apocalypse Now with being able to touch on what my father [who, while estranged i have met him a few times in my youth], who is a Vietnam vet calls the 'real feelings of that war'...for him he says he has a hard time watching both of those films because they have elements that he feels so accurately portray what it felt like to be there; the insanity of it, the incredible intensity, stresses and surreal complete change in realities that's a bit too close to home for him...and i've got a little bit of an interest in grittier, truer portrayals of that war, or moreso the effects of the war on those there, most likely because he's estranged i suppose...
SO i'm as positive as i can be at 7am on a Sunday morning @ work that i'll be making the 1:30pm showing today...it's the only showing for this movie this month or next, so if anyone wants to come, come today and i'll be heading down with my co-worker so i'll see you there...and if you don't know it, it's a good way to finally get all those references to it [didi mau!] that you've always missed :)
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Saturday, March 28th, 2009
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Tuesday, March 24th, 2009
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i've never been here before, i've never been this lost or disillusioned, and i don't even have the words to try to describe the hurt...i...i just don't know what it is that i keep doing so wrong to deserve such awfulness....such cruelty...
i am so completely lost here...the only good thing is i think being so confused, so lost and alone in this that it's keeping me from focusing on the hurt...hooray for upsides?
yes, my usual cryptic venting that is usually never what you think...which usually also means there's nothing you can do to help...'cause i suck like that.
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leave it to a cat to find a way to make me smile through the tears; my h00g fluffy Norwegian Forest Cat Mecha has recently decided to start walking up my back to reach my head and SIT ON IT while i'm sitting at my laptop...?!
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wow... just time warped me back to 1994 quite unexpectedly by tagging me in this old photo...details on flickr, but it was for a news article or piercing magazine layout if memory serves me well...![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) violetnun said it barely looks like me anymore, but to me *shrug* it's just, well, me...i haven't bothered with make-up for quite a while though.
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Saturday, March 21st, 2009
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so i did it, i totally caved and got a damnable FaceBook account...mostly 'cause i'm so tired of trying to explain to everyone who asks why i don't have one already :) so far i've had to change the name on my profile to DeeJay leslie 'cause my last name was apparently very c0rnfusing for people and the Facebook people won't let me use DJ...so there, it's done...take that internets!
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i wanted to say thanks to all those wunnerful friends who've emailed and offered some really great ideas for plans but sadly i've gotten called in to work...i'm working 16 hours today, followed immediately by another 7 hours as my second Sunday shift goes overnight in to the next day, and THEN i'm back at 11pm that same [Monday] night for another overnight...so thanks people, but i'll have to postpone hang-outs until after our show this Tuesday night [which i'll have to post about asap, hopefully later this afternoon...]...so i hope some of you are still able to go on some of the adventures offered earlier in the week..?
so thanks again, you guys are so great for chasing the blues away, at least for a while...can't wait for this work madness to end and hope the show goes well; just my luck that this is the week twiin is off adventuring in Austin at SxSW until late Tuesday night, proving among other things that the world really is pretty small as he managed to run in to a friend of mine randomly on the streets of Austin, a friend who i hope would remember meeting him as well last time he was in Ottawa...at least i hope so, given the circumstances ;) [and you'll have to ask twiin to explain that one!]
so yes please to coffee, lunch or other adventures, but it'll just have to be after our show this Tuesday instead of before...just get in touch about it...oh and i managed to miss a couple films i'd wanted to see at the Mayfair lately, most recently Otto: or Up With Dead People and Let The Right One In; anyone get a chance to see either of them?
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seems my firewall at work ate the email i sent to dabblerblue post-poning our plans for today, so it's possible it ate other messages as well...so if you didn't get an email and we were supposed to hang out, h00g apologies!! my work it seems is not only eating my brain but now the internets there have turned cannibalistic...
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Thursday, March 12th, 2009
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i tend to be pretty reclusive but i do pop my head out of my cave every so often, so anyone who'd like to go for coffee/lunch with me over the next few days, either leave me a note here or email me: djleslie[at]gmail[dot]com....so yeah...
oh also, the last couple weeks have been spent with multiple pinched nerves from partially slipped discs [between my shoulder blades this time] which all = massive migraines as the tension works its way out...which means i've not replied to any emails and whatnot; my bad, sorry...i hope to catch up over the next week or so.
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2009
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we had to put Tazia to sleep today....it was...hard.
she gave me 18 years of fuzzy love and was my little Godzilla, my little kaiju Tazia....you'll be missed, miss....
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working.
squigged out.
worried.
indescribable.
artistic.
beyond hurt.
sad.