poor. impulse. control.

DJ DOWN!

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 09:42:59 GMT

Greetings all,

I'm writing on behalf of DJ Leslie (this is her roommate, Suzanne) and she'd like to pass on some info for everyone...

Leslie has been struggling with some pinched nerves and extreme muscle pain recently. Unfortunately, last week her back and neck pain progressed to the point where she was taken to hospital and underwent two surgeries. She's currently doing well and waiting for a bed to open up so she can move from ICU - but her recovery is going to be long term (months).

While this obviously means she won't be able to DJ at the club over the next few months - DON'T PANIC! Jairus, Phil and Devin will be stepping up to keep the night going. She would like to let everyone know that her entire music library will be available every week - so any requests you may have can still be played - and you can expect to hear new music and old favourites alike.

Please continue to come out and enjoy the night, support your DJs and hear lots of great music!

If you'd like to send a message for Leslie, please leave one here and I'll print them up to take to her. If you'd like to visit once she's out of ICU and in a room, please contact me at zannerat at gmail dot com for details.

Thanks everyone - hopefully Leslie will be up and spinning as soon as possible, but for now she would really love to see Jairus, Phil and Devin supported in all they're doing to keep the night going until she can get back.

puh?

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 13:46:09 GMT

as i continue to ride out this incredibly lengthy, debilitating, irritating and INCREDIBLY painful set of injuries, i just had to struggle to the PC today to share something interesting...

the most unusual version of Winnie the Pooh or Vinnie Puh [part 1] i've ever seen...

the case of the dis-ta-peared DJ!

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 23:10:21 GMT

hey sorry for not returning messages or being remotely reachable the last week and a half...in my usual luck-o-leslie, 2 weeks ago i managed to tear some some ligaments in my right hand, making it useless and thumb and forefingers were in excruciating pain...and i thought that was bad until, only a few days later, i had an accident with my back resulting in the worst pain i have EVER been in for a week and a half, further complicated by my right hand issues...sadly when my back first went out, it was from shoulder blades to top of the neck, including multiple pinched nerves [meaning loads of pain and immobility on my left side mostly], a couple partially slipped discs and massive intensive spasming lasting for a day or so at first then hours at a time, not to mention all the related pain and muscle issues, no ability to turn the head, blah blah but the basic idea is one issue after the other of some of the worst pain and discomfort i've EVER been in...

of course i have other chronic health/pain issues so that just made things worse resulting in me throwing up pretty constantly for a week, insomnia for the entire time, with a lucky day being one where i can fall asleep for 2 hours sitting up supported...most days i was not that lucky...so i'm also utterly exhausted a week in to this hell...

SO when the tension starts releasing you'd think, YAY! right? yeah me too until my back went NUTS as the discs moved back in to place...the tension has to leave by the top [neck] or bottom [tailbone], traveling the same path, passing over pinched nerves, causing spasms etc. on its way out just like on its way in...yay...THEN some of it went 'down' and got caught up in my lower back resulting in MORE pinched nerves, including not one but BOTH sciatic nerves!! so now i can't even walk at times, let alone get in ANY position EVER that isn't EXTREMELY painful...i almost ended up in hospital in traction but thankfully i was able to attack the spasms etc. with a bunch of different approaches and it's just now begun to start to loosen, nerves slowly releasing....

and there's SO much more crap, all over the last week and a half...but after all this, after this CONSTANT NEVER CAN ESCAPE FOR A MOMENT EXTREME PAIN i've realized that despite my life-long chronic health and pain issues, despite my 'colourful' life growing up and getting in to some pretty hairy situations sometimes resulting in some pretty heavy injuries, despite all of that, the last week and a half has been the WORST PAIN I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE...friends who know me know that is a very big statement for me to make, and i don't make it lightly...

so please, sorry for dropping out of touch with everyone abruptly and not returning messages but it was just THAT bad...

looking for work?

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 12:42:52 GMT

ATTENTION AWESOME COMPUTER G33K FRIENDS!

my pretty awesome work is going to be hiring for a position or 2 on our leveraged technical helpdesk, bilingual essential...it's all peer to peer and monitoring large, critical networks, applications and mainframes; it is NOT a call center [the most other people i EVER work with, at the highest peak of daytime business is at most maybe 7? but usually it's only one other person since i don't work usual daytime shifts] and we don't have any scripts or 'talk times' or heavy browsing/download restrictions or any crap like that, we watch stuff at our desks that we can bring in or we can stream/download to our desks so long as it's after the daytime starts quieting down [after 3pm or so] although quiet days we can even get away with some serious slacking off most times as well...we're not crazy busy though, even during the daytime shifts [it's never just call after call after call] and my supervisor and manager are the best ones i've ever had; i've been here for over 6 years so...i won't even get in to 'napping' on the overnights ;)

it's at the SunLife towers [the 2 towers @ 50 O'Connor & 99 Bank St.] w/that gorgeous atrium in the glass enclosure linking the 2 highrises, the one with the waterfall surrounded by trees and flowers inside? yeah that one [it's an awesome building to work in, especially after hours] with the YMCA health club in the basement...SO if you're interested you can leave a reply here but no matter what i'd need you to email your CV/resumé to me to forward so if it's ready to go you can just go ahead and send to me via email: djleslie[at]gmail[dot]com :) the only drawback, of course, is then you'd have to work with moi! dun dun DUUUUNNNN!!!

like anyone's surprised?

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 01:58:12 GMT

Which Extremist Are You? Your Result: Anarchist Your political views most closely match that of an anarchist. Anarchists see government as having a negative influence, or otherwise believe that we'd be better off without it, and thusly reccomend a lack of such things. If you are not an actual anarchist, than you probably exhibit such related qualities as a general mistrust of authority and/or faith in the abilities of common people.
Authoritarian
Anarcho-Primitivist
Communist
Extremely Dull
Corporate Conspirer
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one reason why my job is 'aight

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 15:34:50 GMT

my job is ok...the work itself is, well, meh, but the pay is ok considering the work, almost all my co-workers are great and my direct management, my supervisor and manager, are friggin' awesome...like my English! ;) my point? well a week or 2 ago my co-worker Said who starts work at 8am dozed off at his desk which he apparently does pretty much every morning [i'm not here then since i work nights] and what does my supervisor do, does she give him shit? she films it with a cellphone, posts it on Facebook and sends it to everyone we work with :) actually she tagged everyone who works with us in it even though we weren't in the video, so if you're REALLLLLY bored it's in my videos section in FB.

oh and to top it all off every time she goes vacations she does outdoor trapeze; how awesome is that?! if you're logged in to FaceBook check out my awesome supervisor whippin' out the trapeze moves here...why? 'cause you're as bored at work as i am...

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apparently they're friends only so i'll ask her to make some public and post if i can!

overnight boredom

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 08:50:17 GMT

i know it's kinda lame, but i think etymology is downright fascinating...and so tonight i've discovered this! so far the word 'jerk' is pretty interesting....wow, i'm just so damned thrilling now, ain't i? o_0

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random quotes for the day that i find appealing:

"To follow by faith alone is to follow blindly."

&

"They that can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety."

- Benjamin Franklin

i r eville?

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 08:50:32 GMT

so over many years i'd seen M.C. Escher's art piece called Angels and Devils:

Escher's - Angels & Devils

and i'd always thought it was just a title for an art piece of bats until a few years ago when it was explained to me that it was one of his 'optical illusion' pieces and forced myself to try and see the angels instead...it was actually hard to do, and i still find it so...i have no idea what that means! :)

ALSO we're packing the rest of the house Friday all day, although we've gotten twiin and Mike's stuff pretty much moved, i have a plethora of stuff so we could still use some strong unb0rked folks to help us move...it'll be pretty casual, all day packing, and moving later on kinda day...and even if it's raining [but not storming!], we do have the pool open for anyone who wants a last dip...SO if you wanna pop by or come help feel free to get in touch!

people find such varied ways to be awful, don't they?

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 02:25:03 GMT

what's amazing to me is the authority with which those with priviledge criticize those who experience such disadvantages that those with priviledge have never had to bear.

one my heroes

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 13:21:10 GMT

this man was so awesome...he's someone whose work as both activist and scholar in my field[s] of study in times when opposition to our work was even more overwhelming...he was post-modern before modernism AND i'd go so far as call him a fellow academic feminist; talk about a forward thinker!

"I don't believe in God because I don't believe in Mother Goose."

"Chase after truth like hell and you'll free yourself, even though you never touch its coat-tails."

"The fear of God is not the beginning of wisdom. The fear of God is the death of wisdom. Skepticism and doubt lead to study and investigation, and investigation is the beginning of wisdom. The modern world is the child of doubt and inquiry, as the ancient world was the child of fear and faith." - Clarence Darrow

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PS July 5th is my FIRST day off since June 15th....i'm so friggin' serious.../collapses

PPS ahhh engrish, i've been away too long...you never fail to amuse.

all work and no play makes leslie something something

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 07:34:44 GMT

PANTS!

also...my very first remix has finally been released! it's a remix of Cyanotic's track 'Deface' which i was hoping to make more electro, clubbier, and while it's only a couple years late o_0 it IS out now on the new Ad-ver-sary remix CD as he was my collaborator in t3h music makings...

---> track #15 Cyanotic - Deface (Ad·ver·sary + Dirtybunny = Industrial Strength Mix)

...and i think it sounds pretty damn good in the club after all :D

OH yeah, if you wanna download it to check it out, go right ahead!

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much more to say...later.

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later...

also, i love red ju-jubes.

random thought chain

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 03:56:26 GMT

if something is worth suffering for
then anything is worth suffering for
then nothing is worth suffering for

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Fri, 22 May 2009 02:32:21 GMT

"men heap together the mistakes of their lives, and create a monster they call destiny" - John Hobbes

...you have no idea.

holy mother of fuck

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 00:35:08 GMT

please never let me run in to one of these, ever...there see? proof there is no god...GAH!

that not bad enough for you? well they're land crabs that can get freakin' h00g and are strong enough to eat friggin' coconuts...GAH! I SAY.

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Thu, 23 Apr 2009 19:17:25 GMT

so we had to put Vallakesch [Valla] down...there isn't anything to be done for renal failure so...i'll miss her, she was my peacemaker...her sister was the protector and she was always the first to welcome the new ones to the family...i'll miss her, i'll miss them both...at least i had 18 years with them...

i'd like to wake up now please...

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 03:42:23 GMT

so i have to bring my other oldest cat, Vallakesch, the sister of Tazia who we just had to put down, to the vet tomorrow....and it may also be her last visit, depending on what happens...i'm not so good about it.

also on a far less serious note i just tore the shit out of a favourite pair of [black w/tiny white polka dots] socks on a nail the has since bee pounded back in to the depths of hell, which apparently resides just under the hardwood in the hallway...

for my Canadian friends...

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 14:14:10 GMT

you know, just in case... ;)

403-775-9982 Calgary
780-669-5270 Edmonton
905-963-0318 Hamilton
519-488-2355 London
514-667-0361 Montreal
613-686-3620 Ottawa
647-476-4910 Toronto
778-786-8557 Vancouver
250-984-0686 Victoria
204-272-3976 Winnipeg

love, Canada

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heh if you dunno what these numbers are, call your local one; i promise you won't have to talk to anyone :)

wowza

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 23:49:10 GMT

so i was almost be-headed by a large/heavy amp and turntable that flew off the back of a pick-up truck directly at my head while i was driving directly behind him...if there had been parked cars in the lane beside me or i had been just a little closer to him, i really and truly think [know] i'd be dead or at least severely injured right about now...i haven't had a brush with death like that, a real close, really real brush like that, for a long time...funny how once everything else that has come up since then today has passed, things like this can just come back on you just when you think you've got a quiet moment to yourself....i'm a bit shaken, it seems...it was so close, truly.

you know...

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 23:54:36 GMT

one of the nice things about spring since moving in to this house is feeding the Mallard ducks in the back yard that make our pool their temporary home each year....if only my camera's cord for the re-charger wasn't lost somewhere between here and Germany o_0 i'll try to post some photos once i get a replacement...

in the absence of something substantive to say...

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 23:34:55 GMT

i will never cease to be squigged out by the term 'glory hole'.

...oh and i've been painting constantly for the past while...i've got a new large mounted canvas about half finished and am also finishing up a very large unmounted canvas that i've been working on for years, that's finally almost done...i've also completed a few fine pen & ink pieces...i'll post photos with the others when they're done.

5 minutes to find the most interesting items on t3h internets

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 04:29:05 GMT

i had just enough time to kill so that it wasn't so little that you could go ahead and start moving to the next step in your day but too short to start anything or do anything worthwhile...so i decided to give myself 5 minutes of random internet browsing so see what i could find....once i found the first thing i decided to stay with a home furnishing/decor theme...you'll see why:

-too. many. pixels.
-doubles as a very large nightlight...?
-wokka wokka wokka!
-the table you never want to have to clean
-perfect for Jairus, minus the toppings
-or if you can't find it, DIY

and then found while writing this and unable to resist: i dare you to actually make and eat this o_0 twiin? oninofro? i'm lookin' at you...

Sunday Afternoon

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 11:21:37 GMT

while not exactly a light-hearted romp for a Sunday afternoon, i'm pretty sure i'll be heading to The Mayfair after work today for The Deer Hunter playing today @ 1:30pm...Didi Mau! Didi Mau! heh...

i saw this film for the first time when it came out in theatres [i was 7 or 8...i was a pretty advanced kid] and it really moved me...it's an excellent Vietnam war film, up there with Apocalypse Now with being able to touch on what my father [who, while estranged i have met him a few times in my youth], who is a Vietnam vet calls the 'real feelings of that war'...for him he says he has a hard time watching both of those films because they have elements that he feels so accurately portray what it felt like to be there; the insanity of it, the incredible intensity, stresses and surreal complete change in realities that's a bit too close to home for him...and i've got a little bit of an interest in grittier, truer portrayals of that war, or moreso the effects of the war on those there, most likely because he's estranged i suppose...

SO i'm as positive as i can be at 7am on a Sunday morning @ work that i'll be making the 1:30pm showing today...it's the only showing for this movie this month or next, so if anyone wants to come, come today and i'll be heading down with my co-worker so i'll see you there...and if you don't know it, it's a good way to finally get all those references to it [didi mau!] that you've always missed :)

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on a personal note, i am so much stronger than i ever thought i could be...go me...doesn't mean i don't hurt though...hell, who knew you even could hurt this much without losing a limb...? but i'm in such a different place now...

i wouldn't want to ruin the surprise...

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 04:21:25 GMT

dear _iszoloscope_, sometimes i see something that is -so- you i just have to let you know...[taken from this this Flickr pool]

ALSO somehow i managed to take one of the portable phones from home to work in my pocket...?! NO CONNECTION TO BASE i fucking bet!

you can guess, then imagine something worse and you're halfway there

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 17:51:58 GMT

i've never been here before, i've never been this lost or disillusioned, and i don't even have the words to try to describe the hurt...i...i just don't know what it is that i keep doing so wrong to deserve such awfulness....such cruelty...

i am so completely lost here...the only good thing is i think being so confused, so lost and alone in this that it's keeping me from focusing on the hurt...hooray for upsides?

yes, my usual cryptic venting that is usually never what you think...which usually also means there's nothing you can do to help...'cause i suck like that.

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leave it to a cat to find a way to make me smile through the tears; my h00g fluffy Norwegian Forest Cat Mecha has recently decided to start walking up my back to reach my head and SIT ON IT while i'm sitting at my laptop...?!

DJ leslie circa 1994

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 16:45:33 GMT

wow...dextra just time warped me back to 1994 quite unexpectedly by tagging me in this old photo...details on flickr, but it was for a news article or piercing magazine layout if memory serves me well...violetnun said it barely looks like me anymore, but to me *shrug* it's just, well, me...i haven't bothered with make-up for quite a while though.